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Into The Unknown

Aquamarine

Gave her it all, she bore a nickname
Evenstar she was known, she called me soulmate

I'm in love with her
The farmer's daughter
I gave her truth
She gave me lies

Waking up in the morning I can't wait to see her
Her blank stare indicates to me quite the adverse

She was the one for me
she wore aquamarine
of silver on her finger
and around her neck

We went on a date, we laughed and ate
I recall the feeling of my hands around her waist

She was so beautiful, I can't get her out of my skull
I gave her love she gave me doubt
I gave her love she wanted out
I gave her love she threw me out
Feels like I'm Beren without Luthien


Zeal

I got one misbeating heart
I got acid biting my throat
What was never supposed to happen
happened with complete disregard
I'm splitting ways with apathy
but the zeal has been spent
We had come so far but now
the biggest star is just a scar

I lost the rapture that I had known
Together we had grown
Left a thorn after what's come had gone
I've never felt so wronged
I can't escape the antipathy
I can't wash the panic from my face
I just have a guitar
that bears your lovely name

I knew it was over
when you learned to look away
The contour has misshapen
unimaginable to me

You turned on How I Met Your Mother
and I went for a walk
I scoured the country side
looking for answers in the wind

I didn't have a back up plan
You said we were too strong to break
In retrospect you said
the alternative was so terrifying
One thing is for certain
those were just words to hide behind
As I slept beside you
you answered riddles in the dark

I'm still finding letters
that are addressed to Romeo
I knew once upon a time
that was me

The dream has been shattered, no
The memories have been soured
My affinity was caught between
the colours of a butterfly


Maelstrom

Go away sunny day
Go away sunny day
Sunday morning you woke up fine
No sign on your face of decline
Just a maelstrom of destruction left behind
Piecing together those cold april days
Trying to unravel the greatest mystery
Losing too much has killed this lion

Go away sunny day
Go away sunny day
Heart beating like rapid fire
Passion burning on a funeral pyre
Wondering what is the point of it all
Fantastic the lack of panic in your eyes
As the candle flickers in the wind and dies
I crash land wondering what memories will survive

You lit up my life, you gave me hope to carry on
You lit up my days, and you, you lit up my life

Stop searching cause there's no answer
What's clear and pure is not so sure
Out of the east comes something so unlooked for
Wash myself clean and I will run
Until I reach the shore and that state of mind
is replaced by an undaunted southern flower


Hero

A defiant rose blooming against the dead
of winter with so little hope
And as I try to understand
this great mystery I realize
The fate of destruction
is also the joy of rebirth
I'm not insane, but that's how it seems
I can no longer follow my dreams
and it sickens me inside

You're bullet proof and invincible
All I could do was try my hardest
to be a hero and for a time I guess I was
but I couldn't save our world
now what do I celebrate

So how do you pick up the threads
of an old life, how do you learn to go on
when in your heart you begin to understand
there's no going back
There are some things that time cannot mend
Some hurts that go too deep
I'm living in the wake of the break
just hoping for a little rain
to wash away the pain

You're bullet proof and invincible
All I could do was try my hardest
to be a hero and for a time I guess I was
but I couldn't save our world
now what do I celebrate


Brash

No matter what you said
or what you had done
I kept my fingers crossed
because I knew you were the one
But now I have fled north
because you had gone so far south
Now where is your life headed for
We were propelling towards a future that you didn't care for

You were brash and off to a place I couldn't follow
I could paint with all the colours of the wind but now
time is flowing on to a spring of little hope
I'm scared, too scared to think of you

So now here I am going
At it all on my own
Endless evenings of non-exist
I face the unknown
There's no truth and no guide
and I wonder how could hell be any worse
I'm drowning in a sea of what we used to be
Makes me wanna laugh and puke at the same time

You were brash and off to a place I couldn't follow
I could paint with all the colours of the wind but now
time is flowing on to a spring of little hope
I'm scared, too scared to think of you

Some things are better left in the past
Those abstractions and promises
Left with your vagary
And I don't know

You were brash and off to a place I couldn't follow
I could paint with all the colours of the wind but now
time is flowing on to a spring of little hope
I'm scared, too scared to think of you


No Control

There's nothing left to say or do
There's no pluralizing just singularity
There's no pause and no reprieve
How I wish I could be like you and pack up and go
But it's not like me to say goodbye
Just a tragic epic of you and I

What you see is what you created in me
But change is nowhere near
The light of the evenstar is fading and I don't know why
and I'm left here in disarray

I'm stuck in a desert or Arrakis to be precise
It's the only place we never visited so
I try to escape the misery
But the angel has fallen without warning to the ground
So don't look homeward, angel
I'm stuck but you have lost what you had found

What you see is what you created in me
But change is nowhere near
The light of the evenstar has faded and I don't know why
Wandering in this desert barefoot leave me be

I'm down on my knees, I'm sinking in the sand
Trying to cross the expanse with scorched hands
Feels like there's nothing I can do
How many reasons do I need, we used to run so deep
Don't think it's easy for me to let go
I have no control

Yea, don't think it's easy for me to let go
I have no control, no control
Yea, don't think it's easy for me to let go
I have no control, no control


Tested

This is not a test actually it kind of is a test of perseverance
Checking my wall, seeing your name all over causes me to go so insane
Life throws a wrench in the gears, chain reactions and explosions have torn it down
Stupid, scared, pathetic, but superlative, there's just seems to be no winning

But it's a long, long way down
And there's no end in sight so say bye-bye
And it's a long, long free fall
Struggle to fill your lungs with air
And ride the dissent

It's time for shift of paradigm to re-evaluate the fairy tale you believed so strongly in
Circling storming thoughts churning in a turbine are getting you no where
The steadfast alliance has been destroyed and resulted in a scarring defeat
And all you have is an empty space, writhing and flailing

But it's a long, long way down
And you have no parachute to cope
And it's a long, long free fall
No signs of a soft landing just a splatter


Black and White

Here I am again
Experiencing a bitter scalding end
That unfortunately I am the only one
that is able to perceive it

Antipathy and apathy
Just unwanted states of being
Because as far as I can tell we were the same inside
And now you've done away with me

The bricks are crumbling down
By the rumbling earthquake underground
In this of land of make believe
There's nothing left for me

Feeling like an intruder
Belonging to the outside world
Just looking in and looking back
at the warmth inside those walls

To fall in love fall apart
To give yourself and lose yourself
Just biting my lip so the tears won't show
The memories will last forever and always

The bricks are crumbling down
By the rumbling earthquake underground
In this of land of make believe
There's nothing left for me

At the center of the earth in that parking lot
you sealed the promise with a kiss on the spot
Fast forward through the years I think what a shame
our hearts have gone out of time and we're not the same

Memories burning in your mind
A photo album and that smile
That's too much to take
No sign of sorrow was on your face

Those bright eyes were ablaze
The rapture perceived by everyone
Now they're extinguished
and the fire is gone

I read those words over and over like a pledge
From your heart but turns out they were just ambivalent
I'm amazed at the hate that you could send
Down the black and white is the end of the world

Memories burning in your mind
A photo album and that smile
That's too much to take
No sign of sorrow was on your face

Those bright eyes were ablaze
The rapture perceived by everyone
Now they're extinguished
And the fire is gone


Prehistory

The Expanse

If I could only get to you after it feels this long overdue
and freeze that moment in time
The paradigm we would defy would cause me to realize
what I searched for to find was already mine

But we're worlds away and I'm held at bay
for a time by this vast distance
Despite limited interaction I maintain no distraction
to find a way to cross the expanse

I see the mountains as an edifice looming in the horizon's mist
threatening me with discontent
But we are the archetype opposite of the human plight
and for that I am content

But we're worlds away and I'm held at bay
for a time by this vast distance
Despite limited interaction I maintain no distraction
to find a way to cross the expanse.


Boundless

From the moment I came out, the sun was bright in my eyes
A whole life for me to live, a future as boundless as the sky
Foolishly I thought I could be what I want, do anything that I please
The sordid state of the world never entered into my darkest dreams

There is a split second of peace every now and then when I smile and realize
going to the end of the world would have been more than worth the prize
There is more to this than just what i'm able to perceive
but instead I am left bereft and with no significant guarantee
And now I am.

Apathetic of the known, offering insufficiency
and before more damage could be done I had to in fact set it free
Even though the realization is that it has all been done in vain
It has made all the difference and yet there is no significance

As I lay back and think to myself I find it hard to realize
that this is a world created for all, because for me it's only made for one
There is no point belaboring that which is now lost in the past
and my only regret is that all I can do all that I've done has had no significance
At all.


August 9th

Birds sing, there's not a cloud in the sky
The sweetest lemonade, on that warm summer day
Time is passing, carelessly by the blink of an eye
Yeah August 9th was a beautiful day

Like being in a coma for twenty-two years
suddenly life is once again yours
The storm is gone, the sun has shined all along
Yeah August 9th was a beautiful day

Flowers bloom, in the fields of green
The sun is shining, the warm breeze sighing
The phantom pains, have washed away all that remained
Yeah August 9th was a beautiful day

Like being in a coma for twenty-two years
suddenly life is once again yours
Nothing is wrong because today everything is okay
Yeah August 9th was a beautiful day


Epitaph

You got beauty but it doesn't mean a thing
You got skill but I don't care at all
A featureless silhouette is all that I can see
ever since you became a broken trampoline

I once tried to be there but I lost my nerve
The deception made me stay, I couldn't leave
Now my syntax is intact and I realize that
in fact you're not all that

You're failing, you're failing at the game
happily ever after won't ever be something you can claim
You're feigning as much as ever
When did your life become a rueful "whatever."

You broke your bike, turned into one instead
of fixing it, many came to tread
Banging my head against the wall I thought I had it all
A fool is now all that I recall

You're lying, you've been lying all along
If only then I was so strong
You're dying and you're gone
No epitaph left behind but this song


Contour

I was floating in a sea of pieces
I was shuffling around to find the contour
Wandering around aimlessly and so confused

I was living down the road
I was feeling incomplete and destitute
Some force separating and miscontrued

I am living in fearless bliss
I am thinking back just to reminisce
No more days dragging on like molasses


From Without

This song goes out to the man I once knew
so long ago
With marching thoughts so enharmonically whole
off he goes

He left the walking lingering
and a wake of confusion left behind
He was never jaded by not abstaining
never returned on time just to earn his dime

But nonetheless he's always missed
No lessons ever learned from his lips
My expression is a confession
Profession or regression, I ponder the question

Upon recollection of from without
we're left in a depository of doubt
He might think it's so damn incredible
but for now he is so damn irascible

But nonetheless he's always missed
No lessons ever learned from his lips
My expression is a confession
Profession or regression, I ponder the question

I wonder how he can erode away the days
leave her praying away in disarray
I could guarantee he would disagree
but he is not someone that I would ever want to be

But nonetheless he's always missed
No lessons ever learned from his lips
My expression is a confession
Profession or regression, I ponder the question


All You Gave

Day after day it never seems to stop
I hate to say this but it's over the top
You give it your all
I give it my some
This isn't the way it should be
But I'm left here feeling so numb

So this is my stand I'm telling you how it is
with dichotomic rational
It's not a surprise you don't understand
I've said it before
I'm saying it again
You're suffocating me alive

You took more than I wanted you to take
I might be wrong and it will be my mistake
All you gave was
everything that you could
You fought disrespect, you fought disregard
and in return all I gave was nothing I should

So this is my stand I'm telling you how it is
with dichotomic rational
It's not a surprise you don't understand
I've said it before
I'm saying it again
You're suffocating me alive

So this is my stand i'm telling you how it is
with dichotomic rational
It's not a surprise you don't understand
I've said it before
I'm saying it again
You're suffocating me alive


Neurons

Sitting on a pedastal of refutable virtue
From that high up of course everything you see will be skewed
Looking down there can be no common good
Despite rationality there is nothing at all to be understood

Rejecting all of your humanity
Conveying thoughts only with profanity
Spurning life and mortality
Disbelieving in any equality

It's not a complicated theory if you lay your hatred aside
Stop the negative collision of neurons and the delusion will subside
Dust is the form of a human being and we are all alive
But that is what gears your hatred into overdrive

Disparaging any and all morality
With false and fleeting hospitality
Blinded by severe irrationality
Has left your mind swirling in hopeless debris

Forging false realities with ever increasing disdain
Is leading your slow but rapid everyday decay
Wasting hours mindfully playing futile make believe
It has all left you estranged in this world and so fatally naive

Believing the world is full of self-deceit
Feining intellect with ignorance on repeat
No faith at all in your humanity
Is leading you past post-insanity


Right To Choose

It's widespread persuasion
that's prominent of refuting evolution
They push you to believe through a fear
of a life after death that won't disappear

We're all able to find a salvation
and it doesn't require religious revelation
In the end this could be just a muse
but we all have a human right to choose

Life can either be bliss or an abyss
but in any case all we can do is persist
We won't be lead astray even in decay
with empty promises of divinity each and every day

We're all able to find a salvation
and it doesn't require religious revelation
In the end this could be just a muse
but we all have a human right to choose

And we're all able to find a salvation
and it doesn't require religious revelation
In the end this could be just a muse
but we all have a human right to choose


Ashes

Time can't fill the air
Some are unaware
others fall into despair

Ashes of a past unknown
Ashes of a past unknown
Ashes of a past unknown

Selfishness fills the air
You are unaware
thinking life is so unfair

Ashes of a past unknown
Ashes of a past unknown
Ashes of a past unknown

The apathy is all around
The philosophies run aground
Continuing to go down
The trodden path so well found

Call it what you want, I'll call it life


Overzealous

A blast of cool air now sharpening the senses
I see overzealous priests and they won't let me turn away
Invasive bombers sanctioned and resulting in decay
What kind of God would encourage something so imhumane?

I'm not an Atheist
I am just a human
And if I have a choice
I won't hold a rifle in my hand

Two thousand years ago you made a grand debut
Leaving questionable morals and now guidance long overdue
Systems to follow or reject
golden rules that are oh so far from perfect

I wasn't born without flaws
I'm just a realist
And in the age of science and reason
What's the point for religion to exist?

People in the world are writhing in pain
Mortality is a bliss and not our ultimate bane
Dispution of our origins are among our greatest foes
We must renounce our hatred before our destiny is known

I'm not war supporter
I'm just a human
And if I have a choice
I won't hold a rifle in my hand


Disarray

Heard it first from all my friends
Lacked the ability to comprehend
Never once gave anything to me
Screaming out for understanding

Guess what this really sucks
In this quagmire I'm always stuck
Can't say I'll never forget
Everyone is just a silhouette

Heard it last all the time
Never can go from crawl to climb
Always deceived and lead astray
Systematic disarray, shattered faith

Guess what I'm still stuck
Ever struggling in this arid muck
Trying hard not to regret
Being eclipsed and left for dead


Blink

Let's forget about the crime
take a journey one more time
Escape to meet in a place
Escape to avoid the rat race
How ironic to keep two apart
when ultimately joined at the heart
Until then we waste away
months of todays waiting for the day

Seems like such a long wait out in the cold
But in the blink of an eye time will unfold

After eternity has unwound
and we're back to the known unbound
We and they will be free
to either dis or agree
There's nothing in the way
to stop the world spinning to the day
After so much time it might be hard to realize
leaving one question why

Seems like such a long wait out in the cold
But in the blink of an eye time will unfold


You

It starts with hypocrisy
propagated by your TV
A minor threat to the free
thinkers turn you to a herd of sheep

I turn the channel because I'm not meek
but you're there, so elite
trying to make me feel so incomplete
and I cannot escape the jubilee

I knew you were the one

I knew you were the one for me
the moment I saw you on TV
Flashing bombs and stolen dreams
how could anyone ever disagree

I knew you were the one

The words sound so sweet
but my brain is wracked from the deceit
You can't replete me with sanctity
because my thoughts are much more concrete

How can you mislead the masses to believe
just because they are so naive
It doesn't make it right but still you reap
as if you were Gods commander in chief

I knew you were the one

I knew you were the one for me
the moment I saw you on TV
Flashing bombs and stolen dreams
how could anyone ever disagree

I knew you were the one


Membranes

A forgotten memory lies at the back of my mind
An eternity before it had been fully left behind
Never whole but semi in control
and no ability to oppose how
It's clawing at the membranes
and lingering on in vain
What do I do now?

Now the memory has come back to me today
It's knowingly going to leave me in complete disarray
If ever one knew it could come to this
there would be more to do than vaguely reminisce
Searching for salvation
Finding only damnation
Nothing is ever plain to me


The Beast

We fall down, blind to all
Take orders, and feel small
We're helpless, and we doubt
Punch the clock, in and out

We work half assed and run in place
Wait until the day when we can escape this maze
Ahh ahh (we can't escape this maze)
Ahh ahh (we're stuck in this place)

We sit with backs, to the beast
Corroborate, so they cannot see
Plot and plan, rationalize
One more year, and we're outta here

We're not allowed to ask questions
Just take their word and do the absurd
Ahh ahh (we can't escape this maze)
Ahh ahh (we're stuck in this place)

Hands are tied, as we create
Clients deny, and berate
Try to explain, educate
No debate, so damn irate

We shut out ears and close our eyes
Wait for the clock to tick the day on by
Ahh ahh (we can't escape this maze)
Ahh ahh (we're stuck in this place)


You Don't Belong

Found him in the bottom of a barrel
the friend I once knew so well
He's out of his skull and out of his mind
signed away his life and on the decline
What ever happened since those old days
He's now left ragged and decayed
and can barely remember his name
So what more is left for him to say?

He's a religious drunk, blowing on his horn
Dropping some messed up stuff in an attempt to belong
He's suffering for his art, I wonder how much more can he take
before his body gives up and breaks

Looking back he used to be so devout
God fearing without a thought of doubt
Makes me wonder what drove him to this life
Maybe reality just wasn't enough for him to feel alive

He's a religious drunk, blowing on his horn
Dropping some messed up stuff in an attempt to belong
He's suffering for his art, I wonder how much more can he take
before his body gives up and breaks


Recipe For Hate

Cheat and lie, kill and steal, don't do a thing about anything
In fact never do a damn thing for anyone
Get smart, do work, scrimping for a whole lifetime
Why bother going against the grain from anyone

People suck, taking offense over a pretense
People suck, convicting neighbours without evidence

Up down, left right, weaving your web of lies
Oh no, watch out here comes another one why
hide and lie, hide why, covering up the truth
One of these days it's all going to catch up to you

People suck, taking offense over a pretense
People suck, convicting neighbours without evidence

Recipes for hate, portend like childhood stories
brainwashing to hate anyone you can't see
Superlative altruism, never part of this society
Your free thought is met with insubordination

People suck, taking offense over a pretense
People suck, convicting neighbours without evidence


Civilized

Rotating in a limb of the universe without apparent design
Ever unknowingly and slowly evolving through the ages over time
Transcending our origins all we have to do is open up our minds
(The earth spins, the future begins, all in the blink of an eye.)

We're on this planet, inhabited by civilized man
calling for world peace, ironic because the murders never cease
We're on this planet, where our ancestors once began
thoughts of so many suffering souls, ever buried in a vacant hole

Combusting liquefied fossils is the path to power many have said
Who would have thought that so few could rule so many meerly by threads
The theologians proclaim creation but I have other thoughts instead
(The population grows, ignorance shows, no where to run and hide.)

We're on this planet, somewhere lost in space
with so many wild dreams, our future is boundless it would seem
We're on this planet, we're part of the human race
against all perceivable logic, we're letting the ignorance and hatred reign

We're on this planet, somewhere lost in space
with so many wild dreams, our future is boundless it would seem
We're on this planet, we're part of the human race
Let's put aside our difference please, shoot for our wildest dreams